…just writing out that title scares me. To death. Since about December of 2010 I have had this idea of doing a video blog series. All last year I felt guilty for not doing them when I knew I should, but fear would always get the best of me. Doubt would creep in. And as though fear and doubt weren’t enough, insecurity would suffocate any last bit of chance it had of actually happening.
“What if they think I’m a dork?” (which, clearly, I am)
“But I reeeeeeally hate my speaking voice. I sound like a man….but a man on speed. Cause, you know, I talk way too fast.”
“What if I don’t have anything to say?”
“What if I’ve lost my touch to connect with an audience?”
“What if I am held accountable to every one of my words?”
“What if this actually goes somewhere…?”
Paralyzed by all that “what ifs”, I have done nothing to start up this series that has been rolling around in my head for over a year. I am always pushing others to get out of their comfort zone and take risks, encouraging them with stories of how I have done exactly that and succeeded when taking the risk. But it’s much easier to revel in the risks and successes of the past than to risk again and chance failing. So I stayed comfortable at my desk, blogging only with written word.
About a month ago I decided that I’d had enough and was ready to put an end to all this fear crap. Seriously, since when did I become a person who gave in to fear and insecurity?
Therefore, I introduce to you “Refocus.” Refocus is a new series I will be doing every week with short inspirational, motivational, and encouraging stories from my life and lessons I’ve learned. There is no rhyme or rhythm to how it will all pan out, but instead of trying to work out the kinks ahead of time, I decided to just dive in head first and work out the nitty-gritty as I go.
This is Refocus.
Make sure to check back next Wednesday at noon for another edition of Refocus video!